Lady Marchmain

Hello hello hello

I have begun a conversion--or been led to it--or whatever. I read theology all night and try to get to mass every day.  Nothing in particular set it off, except that my support group was driving me insane and I decided that if I spent my life worrying about my feelings and nothing else I deserved what I got. Besides which, I was in danger of losing my faith because I hadn't put God first--before you-know-who--gorilla man---for a very long time.

I am learning so much, and it is delightful. No, I haven't stopped suffering. No one does, really. But it's like wandering into a forest, getting deeper and deeper and seeing there's still more to see ahead--and it never ends.

I am actually making a lot of quite wonderful friends here. I went to a very good modern jazz concert last night with my friend Kelly. I am starting to feel better than well. But I miss you all so much.

Some Paintings of Pittsburgh

   

Apologies...

For not posting.  I was lazy and depressed (I guess that's obvious.  I am loving Pittsburgh, especially the part near the universities and museums.  Haven't found an apt because I am too comfortable where I will have to I expect. I like all the students roaming around. They make me feel young, and at the same time very wise.  The great thing about cities is  the walking--I know you can walk other places but other places aren't as interesting.

I am getting used to going places alone (not restaurants, tho).  I am reading tons. I am resting a lot.So I guess that's all to the good, after three years of HELL...

Only problem is all my winter stuff is in a barn in Ohio and I forgot the adress. Oh well.