That was about as much spirit as I could muster today. I am sinking pretty fast.It isn't normal for me to be all alone in a new city in a hotel on a holiday. It never will be. It's like the "missing man formation" they fly when a pilot has been lost.  Except that we will be flying the missing man f0rmation forever. It never feels right. Sometimes I can bear it if there are distractions but today everything is quiet and peaceful and I am getting my now-familiar feeling of "where am I?" and "What is this place" etc etc. Everyone is strange,pursuing some activity of their own.  There is nothing good that can come of this kind of life.